Really though? Why him?

My ex, my daughter's father, is a nice guy, don't get me wrong, BUT when it comes to the responsibilities, he really has no clue...none...I got a beautiful child out of the deal and at this point at least 13 more years of dealing with the 'BS'. He doesn't seem to think that he should have to take responsibility for providing for his daughter, outside of his mother's home--which I'm sure he pays for practically NOTHING there--and he has, as far as I know, next to nothing for bills, but yet it's a struggle to get me the litte amount of money that he has gotten away with. Of course the 1st of every month is the 'due' date, but I do not remember ever having gotten money by then! So, now it is 10/07 and I am still owed $50 from 08/01 (no clue what happened there) plus all from 09/01 AND 10/01 and I'm sure he'll try to somehow weasel his way out of it. I *really* need to look into what I have to do to get to court and get this (or him) straightened out.

That being said, one of my nearest and dearest, before he manned up--or gave up--and decided to start paying, sort of laughed at me and asked 'if he sees her, why does he have to give you money?' and I really just wanted to slap her! I usually just get 'ya'-d to death when I speak to most of my other friends on the situation.

There was another blow up about it with another friend--which was pretty serious and pretty seriously ticked me off--but not about the money issue, about when we first were separating.

But, when he had a myspace, it was not private and a few of my friends were on it.

Now he has a facebook, and while it is private, there are 14 mutual friends between us!! Which, I click on them and it's people we both sort of hung out with, and like 5-6 of MY friends!! And I say 'MY' friends because they are!! He never hung out with any of them, other than with me, and not frequently...granted most of them went to HS with him too, but really??? Have you not heard how things have gone down? Or do you just not care??

It just really bothers me because of how much of hell I have gone through with this situation, with not only the money, but the problems with my daughter herself and the 'daddy love' that is so awkward to me... a lot of hurtful things can come out of a young child, and it is soooo hard to not take it 'personal'...I mean, it is, but she is young and does not truly understand what she is saying, so to a point, I can just shrug it off, but I always question 'what is so special about him that is not about me?', and everyone always says 'it's because you set rules and it's not a free for all when you have her'...which could be very true, but it is just so strange, I really think there is more to it. To pick up your child, the person you brought into this world (literally), on her birthday! from her father and to have her run the other way and say 'I don't want mommy' is just really odd to me.

This blog could go forever, but I just do not really get it, what my friends are thinking...